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Monday, September 28, 2020

How to control the mind?

We think a lot, worry, get angry, disturbed, yet don't know what to do about it.   We try to stay calm, not to get disturbed.  It does not help much.  The mind goes haywire.  We feel like a victim of mind.  If I can't control others or change situations, at least I should be able to control my own mind.  I have to make it so strong that it wont get hurt from others.  This is our aspiration.  It appears to be sane idea - I want to be the master of my mind. 

Tell me, who wants to master the mind?  Mind is nothing but a stream of thoughts.  When one thought was bugging, a thought came, "I must control".  Is this also not another thought?  One thought wants to control another thought.   What you think is,  you are controlling the thought.  This is how the mind becomes a battle field. This is not the way to peace. 

We need a totally different approach. Instead of trying to control thoughts, we need to watch the thought itself. Watch the thought as a pure witness.  You are not fighting with it. You are not judgmental. You stay one step away from it and watch it.

Thoughts are like clouds. They will not stay for long.  They keep on moving continuously.  One thought came and gone, another thought came, another thought...all gone...nothing will stay, if you are not interested in it.  Because, you take it seriously, they take it as invitation and stay for a long time.  Either you welcome it or resist, it is an open invitation to thoughts. 

Watch them without any intension.  Your attention is like a bright light.  Have you seen the dust particles floating in bright sun light through your window?  Such are thoughts in front of your attention.  You will just smile at them.  Tiny little dust particles dancing in the light.

Thursday, September 17, 2020

Joy is your Nature.

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Joy is your nature

The happiness which we know is not real and it is not our own also. It depends on others and circumstances. It comes and goes. When it goes, it leave us in more pain. 

Joy and happiness are not same.  
Like Sunshine to sun, joy is  to us. Very natural. 

It is not something to be attained.  It has no opposite. It is not the normal kind of happiness we know through events and  experiences. Joy is being untouched by events and experiences.  t's called by sages as bliss. This is our own. Nobody can give us and nobody can take it away from us. 

Joy appears to be lost because we are chasing happiness. The chase is pain.  And, we  foolishly chase  it from things that are not stable. Once the thing goes, our happiness also goes.

Who told that we are not fine as we are, but need something to be happy? 

Is it really so? 
Is it not mere a thought believed in?

Somebody sent an enquiry to me after reading the post. 

Where is Joy? What is Joy? When is Joy?

Is it in watching the rain?  in the smile of a child? a sea side view?  Being with loved ones?  She was very curious to know how it would be like to be Joyful.  

You can not bring "Joy" under your microscope because it is hiding  under your eyes.You can identify only which is not joy.  So, Do not try to find  "Joy".  Just stop your chase.

I want happiness - From this sentence remove "I" and "want", what remains is Happiness.

Your sadhana is to eliminate "I" and "want".  Joy is already there.

The Beautiful Heart

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The Beautiful Heart.

We don't know Love, 
Only images of love.
Images are 
Sweet illusions,
Bondages in 
beautiful packages,
Socially accepted and
We are very well adjusted. 
When Love arrives,
No one recognize.
As it shatters the house
just in one knock.
How can it be Love?? 
It is painful.
It is destructive. 
Allow Love to destroy 
All that you are not.
Allow Love to burn
All the rubbish
You have collected
That is the only way 
Back to your Beautiful Heart.

~Parameswari Kumar.

Tuesday, September 15, 2020

Your love has made me dance romance. ~Bulleh Shah.

Your love has made me dance romance.
Your love within me made scroll
I drank poison of brimming bowl
Rush my savior, lest I should die.
The flames of love are leaping high. 

The Sun is set, the crimson is rear.
Me sacrificed, you re-appear.
O my master, I did forget.
With you, I did not go, ablest. 
Your love has made me dance romance. 

Oh, mother, prevent me not from love
Is there some one bring back my love
I have lost intelligence, wisdom
I have lost in sailor's arm.
Your love has made me dance, romance.

The peacock sings in but of love,
My love appears as Ka'ba love.
Inflicts he wounds, does not care.
Such is beloved, he is fair.
Your love has made me dance romance.

Bullah brought at Inayat's threshold 
Who made me put on green and red
And, when I had the flight to get
My love; love made me thoroughly wet.
Your love has made me dance romance.
~Bulleh Shah.

Reflection: 

Beloved, Your love has made me dance romance. This is a divine romance.  I am so drunk, I just scroll up and down.  I have completely lost myself by drinking the poison from the cup filled with Your love.  Please rush to save me. The flames of love are leaping high. 

The Sun is already set.  World is receding, What else is left?  I have scarified myself.  You re-appear. I know you are not really away from me. Please, appear again.  O my master,  I have forgotten all that is known.  Its my goodness, I did not become intelligent since you are with me.   Your Love has made me dance romance. 

Oh, mother, prevent me not from love. The tendencies of body and mind pulls me back from going to my love.  Only Guru can bring back my love. What is the use of cleverness?  The sailor is You, I am lost in your arms.  

The peacock sings in love.  You know, my beloved inflicts wounds and He does not care for it.  Through those wounds, your Grace could enter.

Here, Bulleh Shah is using the language of love.  

Union with the Universal consciousness is Romance.
Poison - Self knowledge 
Devotion is flames of Love.
Sun is set - Dispassion.
Me sacrificed - Ego sacrificed. 
I forget -  Pure mind
Did not go Ablest - The sense of "I don't know".  
Mother - Prakriti.





Monday, September 14, 2020

Why do you stay in prison? ~Rumi

 


Prison indicates our personality.  The personality is like a tight compartment.  It is really suffocating and restricting free movement. Yet, we are unable to get out of it.  The love for prison is what obstructs us to see the door.  Actually, we are not locked up and it is not at all difficult to get out of it. The door is wide open.  Just, we need to get up and walk out. 

But, you know, having lived long inside the prison, we have developed a bond, an attachment with it.  This is "my" prison, "my" house.  I am safe and comfortable inside.   May be, I can try to decorate it, renovate it, why should I leave?  Who knows what lies outside?  

This is how, we continue to live in the prison.  The door is wide open.  It is inviting.  Faith is needed.   Yes, Step out with faith. 

Freedom is only for brave ones.

~Parameswari Kumar















Advait in Daily life

What is meant by Advait or Non-duality?  

Literally Advait means Not Two.   It is not mere a  philosophy but a beautiful and intelligent way of living.

Everything in this Universe is dual in nature.  It means, there is always two, like two sides of a coin. They are inseparable. 

If you observe  the Nature, there is always two. Day and night, cold and hot, life and death, tall and short, happy and sad, success and failure.  They can never be one without the other. A cloth is made because of threads passing in opposite directions. Similarly, this Universe, Life is functioning because of opposite values.  

Even if we observe our daily life, we are continuously facing duality, both outside in the world as well as inside our mind.  They are not only two, but they cannot remain same all the time.  One will change into another. 

Laughter changes into tears, love changes into hatred, friendship turns into enmity.  Even our thoughts and feeling are also divided.  One thought will pull us in one direction, while the other will pull in another direction.  This is what confusion is.  In fact, we are torn between various forces inside our mind in many directions.  This is chaos.  

Living in duality is to live in conflict and confusion.  Duality is split, many.  

Advait means to be One.  It is Integrity, Clarity.  

So far, we have lived our life in duality.  We have suffered enough.  There is an alternative way available to live our life better, with joy and peace.  That is, Advait. 

We need to bring Advait in our daily life, not mere a concept to read and discuss. This group is an effort to live in this new understanding. 


Sunday, September 13, 2020

Man, you have squandered life ~ Sant Kabir

 Nar tum jootte janam gauaaya.

~Kabir Sahib.

Man, you have squandered your life in lies,

False one came to false house, identified with false ones,

Eating false food from false plate, 

Entering into a false house and married to false one,

False bride with false groom, false marriage ceremony

From a false man and false woman, a false baby was born

Feeding false milk from the false breast and false uterus.

Kabir sahib says, Listen, I will tell the Truth, not lies. 

The true ones are called as liars, but

The devotees of God are true,  they are immersed in themselves. 

Kabir ji says, "Man, you have wasted your life in lies".  The life which was not lived rightly is a wasted life. You were thirsty and someone gave cup  of water.  But, instead of drinking it, you spilled it and keep drinking some colored liquid.  You wasted the water.  Similarly, by holding on to wrong things, you simply waste your life.  This life is a rare opportunity to realize yourself, to break free from the prison and fly and enjoy the infinite sky.  It was given to you by Grace, but you wasted it, by your foolishness. 

What is a lie?  

A thing which does not exist, but appears to be existing. 

A promise that was not fulfilled. 

Kabir sahib does not say, "you" have come into a false house, but he says a "false one" has come into false house.  In the first line itself, he refuses the very existence of "you".  You are false.  That's what Kabir sahib is conveying.   The one who came into the body is not real.  It is the jiva, a bundle of  mental tendencies only has come into this body.   What is this body? Flesh and blood. Urine and excretion.  It was born one day and will die, Time will burn the body soon. Who can say that it is my own.  Yet, the jiva enters into the bod, owning this body  and starts identifying as son, daughter, brother, sister, father, mothers etc.,  

 In deserts, it is common that travelers loose even their life by chasing the mirage for water.  There is no water, yet it appears so, Similarly, everything appears here in this world are like mirage. They keep moving, changing and dissolving.  Nothing is permanent. 

Look at the common man's life. It is revolving around only these issues - Food, shelter, sex, marriage and children. Every endeavor of man is to protect and sustain life in this body. Is it not wasting one's life? Investing whole life on something which is  going to fail one day.  

The real is forgotten. Who cares for Joy? What wants freedom? Where is love?  They have been compromised for lies. 

This life should have been used to find freedom from illusions, to find the treasure hidden inside, to express the joy and love, but it has been simply wasted by associating following the false ones.  

Kabir says, "Listen dear, I assure you, I am telling the truth, I wont speak lies.  Those wise ones have been deemed to be liars. Only those who are surrendered to Ram/Truth are real.  They are immersed in their heart and found That which is changeless, deathless and real.  Only he has lived  wisely. Others simply fritter away life in running behind mirages. 

नर तुम झूठे जनम गँवाया (Lyrics) झूठे के घर झूठा आया, झूठे ते परिचाया । झूठी थाली झूठा भोजन, झूठे ले सब खाया ।।१।। झूठे के घर झूठा आया, झूठा ब्याह रचाया । झूठा दूल्हा झूठी दुल्हन, झूठे ब्याहन आया ।।2।। झूठे नर सब झूठी नारी, झूठे बालक आया । झूठी छाती झूठी कोखी, झूठा दूध पिलाया ।।३।। साँच कहूँ मैं झूठ न बोलूँ, साँचे को झुठलाया । कहैं कबीर सोई जन साँचा, अपने माहिं समाया ।।४।। - गुरु कबीर साहब -




Sant Kabir bhajan - Sahib Tera Bhed

साहब तेरा भेद न जाने कोई ।।टे.।।
                                   
पानी लै लै साबुन लै लै,
मल मल काया धोई। 
अन्तर घट का दाग न छूटै,
निर्मल कैसे होई ।।१।।

या घट भीतर बैल बँधे हैं,
निर्मल खेती होई।
सुखिया बैठे भजन करत हैं,
दुखिया दिन भर रोई ।।२।।

या घट भीतर अगिन जरत है,
धूम न परगट होइ।
कै दिल जाने अपना भाई,
कै सिर बीती होइ ।।३।।

जड़ बिनु बेल बेल बिनु तुम्बा,
बिनु फूले फल होइ।
कहैं कबीर सुनो भाई साधो,
गुरु बिनु ज्ञान न होई ।।४।।

- गुरु कबीर -

Lord, nobody recognize the distinction of yours.

The soap and water 
may wash away the dirt from the body
Will it remove the dirt from inside?
How can it be clean?

Keep the buffalo tied up inside the field
Then, the crops will not be spoiled.
Those who are immersed in bhajan, live in joy
Those who are worried, cry all day. 

He who has the blazing flame inside
Have no smoke showing up
If the head is not given up,
how will you know the heart?

There is trunk without roots, Branches with out trunk
Fruits without flowers 
Oh Saddho! Listen to Kabir,
There is no wisdom without Guru. 

Sahib means Ram, the Truth. World is Maya, False.  But, nobody seems to know the distinction at all. 

They think that by washing the body with soap and water, we will become clean.  Soap and water can clean the body. Will they remove the dirt from the mind?  Ego is the dirt, Kabir sahib is referring here.  It has been acquired from outside and sticking with the mind as a stain. 

The bull is a symbol for passion.  It is strong and powerful.  It will drag us down and pull in its own direction.  If at all we want to make good harvest in our field, we must tie it down and keep in control.  The field is our mind, Bull is passion.  When it is left uncontrolled, it will be destructive.  The same bull will be useful if it is controlled.  When the passion is directed to a higher goal, then, the same energy will serve the Lord instead of dissipating in lower tendencies.

Those who are in Bhajan, in remembrance, are happy, joyful. Bhajan is a beautiful word.  Bhaj means to resonate.  Whose mind is in resonance with Truth, they are joyful.  Those who are worried, keep crying all day.  

When fire is strong, smoke will not surface.  Similarly, when there is a strong fire to know the Truth is strong, then, in their mind, doubts and confusions will not arise.

Kabir sahib is talking about an unusual fruit here.  Normally, trucks will emerge from roots, from the trunks branches and from the branches flowers and flowers will turn into fruits. But, this special fruit is not obtained in this way.  It is not a fruit that comes from cause and effect.

  Listen O Saddho, this fruit called wisdom comes by the grace of Guru.  It takes no time, no reason, no method. no effort. It comes just by the grace of Guru.  The Guru is within us.  His Grace only will bring wisdom. Nothing else. 

Saturday, September 12, 2020

Feeling bound by roles

 Q:  I do not like when others see me as a mother or daughter or wife.  I feel bound by these roles. What to do? 

Dear,

we are two. We are ego as well as the Self.   You are mother as well as pure Self.  Both are like circumference and centre.  When your children call you as mother, they refer your role, not you.  The society cannot see what you are really inside. They will see only your body and all relationships are relationships of body.  Not only in family, wherever we go, we must play some role.  If you go to office, then, you will be called as an employee.  If you go to a shop, you will be called as a customer.   

Let them call you by a role, but you stay as Self.  Do not identify as a role. Then, the Self will guide you how to perform the role in a right way.  You will be a good mother, daughter when you know you are not a mother and daughter.   It is paradox, but true.  

Do not expect others must see you as Self, not as body.  It would be difficult for them now.  Once they mature, then they may be able to see your essence.  You must know that you are free  soul.  From that freedom, act your roles in the world.  

 Remember that you are empty and free inside while playing the roles.  This is remembrance of God.  Then, all your relationships will be Godly relationships. 

Is God separate from me?

God is not separate from you. 

But, to be in Him, 

you will have to die to yourself first. 

You will have to offer your head to Him.


Looks like a 

strange deal! 

But, Kabir Sahib says,

 It is worth taking

such a deal.

Only fortunate people 

will go for it. 

In this trade,

You will not gain anything,

But loose everything

Including yourself.


Bankrupt.

Clean sweep.

Empty pocket.

Pure Heart.


Then, there will be no difference between 

You and Him.

He will give Himself to you.

This is Advait.


~Parameswari Kumar

The begging bowl

Dear beloved Lord,


At night, I slept on my bed

Woke up in the morning,

Remembering all that happened,

with hope, lust and agitation.


When will that day come, 

when I will sleep on your lap

and wake up freshly

with the  remembrance of

Your  Grace, Peace, love and compassion?


~Parameswari Kumar


Dear beloved Father,

I had been roaming around the streets

as a beggar

with the hope that

something or somebody

in someday will fill my bowl

moving from place to place, 

person to person.

 

Nobody could satisfy my hunger.

Became hopeless and helpless,

Dropped down under the tree.


Somebody picked me up 

And held me in hands,

He looked wise and compassionate.

He became my companion. 


He did not seem to belong to

this place and time,

But, coming from a far away place, 

Yet close to me.


One fine day I found his true face.

He is really not a person as I thought, 

But You, my Father in disguise

I could see You hidden

inside the robe and

behind the eyes of the teacher. 


You are the King of all and I am your child.


At that moment, 

I threw away the begging bowl.


~Parameswari Kumar.


Friday, September 11, 2020

Nothing is like your feet.

O Beloved Lord,

Nothing is like your feet.
Let my head rest on your feet always.
Bless me,
Except your feet,
I have nothing
I know nothing
I want nothing.  

The moment
I want something,
I know something,
I have something,
It is already hurting like hell.
Do not punish me further.
Do not take away your eyes from me. 
Let me hold your feet firmly
forever and ever. 



Dear Lord,

This "me" is too heavy
I cannot carry this anymore.
Shall I drop it on your feet?
Shall I slide on to your lap
And sleep timelessly? 

~Parameswari Kumar.

Thursday, September 10, 2020

Brain conditioning and Intelligence

    

Brain conditioning Vs Intelligence

Brain is the only organ in our body which is partially biological but mostly social. All organs work on their own with a minimum control from outside. But, brain is the only organ whose entire contents have come from outside only. It can be easily manipulated by others. 

Somebody can say or do something and it may affect the brain function and change our perception.   That's how it has been conditioned by family,  school, culture, religion, Society, TV, media etc.,  Any piece of news in TV can induce fear or violence.  The social systems can induce greed in the brain, can trigger fear and insecurity.  What else the insurance companies do?  They instill fear of death and we invest money in policies. What else the movie industry do?  What else the politician do?   Condition the brain for their selfish profits. 

 A professional marketing person can influence the brain to believe that you desperately needs that product.  You may be attracted towards a particular model of mobile and it may appear to be our own desire. No sir. It has been put into your mind by advertisement agencies.  You saw the advertisement everywhere in the newspaper, television, social media and even the road hoardings.  One day, suddenly you got the idea of buying a new phone though the old phone is only 6 months old.  Day and night, TV channels are showing news about how many people died in viral infection and how it is dangerously spreading around, and you are scared.  All the programs in TV have been well planned and prepared to attack and mould the brain only.  We are simply not aware of this.  Our life is not at all our own, but controlled by others, controlled by society, media, culture etc., 

The world is not just outside, it sitting inside our head. We cay even say that the brain is an agent of world inside us. Every bit of it, the thoughts, ideas, beliefs, concepts, dogmas has come from the world only.  And, there is an entity standing along with the total conditioning, we call it as "Me", Myself.   This is called as Ego or Self image. 

 It is good as far as the brain controls our body functions like heart beat, digestion and immune systems etc., It can save us from danger by producing adrenal gland.  But, it does not stop there.  

Each one of us have different experiences, so our conditionings are different. That's how one person would be weeping for something and the other one would be laughing at the same thing. It's all pre-determined. We know already what will make us angry.  We know what kind of behavior will make us emotional. We move about in life as if we are under the spell of something.  Since the brain is a container of past, there is no scope for anything new or fresh in the brain, yet it has tremendous force to put us in a groove of patterns.   Have you seen how a hamster rotating in a wheel continuously?  Exactly the same way, we live by our conditionings. 

Don't be discouraged.  Don't get disappointed.  There is a way out of this trap.  There is something in us which can not come under the control of brain and not even touched by thoughts or feelings or emotions.  If you are reading these words with complete attention and understand its meaning, then, you know what it is.  That is "Attention".  The brain can think, but cannot know. But, there is something knows in you, that is not at all coming from brain.  This faculty which is knowing and understanding is called Intelligence.  This intelligence is your own.  Everything in you has come from the world, except this one thing, that is your intelligence. It is not a thing at all.  

After millions of years of evolution, our human brain has acquired the capacity to look at itself. It has matured to watch its own mechanism. Machines can't watch and inquire its own existence. But we ask,  who am I? what is happening to me?  where did I come from?  This is the function of intelligence.  Only human brain has this capacity to understand its own nature, no other species has this quality, so, human life is precious.  We have the potential to come out of the cycles of pleasure, pain, happiness, sadness, confusions, conflicts, feelings and emotions, which put together called by one name, suffering.  

The real "I am" is intelligence. It is Knowingness.  Our true Self can not suffer, because it is formless and changeless. Nothing can touch the true essence of what we are. But, if we are careless and inattentive, then,  conditioning will take over the seat of intelligence and lord over us.  

In short, emotions are outcome the deep conditioning of our brain, either biological or social. Just as fish in the ocean is wet,  we are conditioned by time.  It is unavoidable. We can't even live without some basic conditioning of body.  But, when it dominates and dictates terms and conditions of our life, then, it is a big problem.  

As a human being, now the brain has got the maturity to watch its own functioning.  This capability to be attentive and watchful is not the function of brain, but it is coming from the intelligence of life itself.  When the brain is alert and conscious, then, it is called as mind. Mind is brain plus intelligence. 

One may feel worried, depressed or anxious and nobody likes to be in those states.  Either we suppress them or try to escape from them.  Go and talk to a friend,  feel better for sometime, or watch a movie, browse the net, be lost in fb or instagram, do some breathing exercise, sit in meditation for 20 minutes and try to be calm and quiet.  You may do hundred and one thing, but they are all short lived, tiresome and temporary treatments only. 

The root cause of the disease is our lack of awareness.  We live our life in a very automatic way. As long as our lives are run by our conditioning, we must go through suffering.  

Living our life guided by intelligence is the only solution for all our mental diseases and disorders.  There is no other way. Peace, joy, love and compassion are the fragrance of  intelligent living. 

 If you are bored, restless, worried or anxious, it is a proof that you are not a machine, at least. Machines never get bored.  If we feel thirsty, then, that is the proof that water exist.  This thirst for freedom is the thirst for Truth.  This is a calling from beyond.

In the next part, we will see what is intelligent living and get some important guidance from Masters, gnanis,  who have lived and living such a great life.





Tuesday, September 8, 2020

Brain, thoughts and emotions.



We have seen that emotions are responses of the body to outer influences. In order to understand emotions, we must know some basic functions of the human brain. The brain is the main organ of our body, which controls and co-ordinates the physiological functions of the body, and also responsible for the thinking processes and generating feelings and emotions.  

What is brain? Where does it come from? It is not a gift from God, for sure.  It has not been made in one dayOver millions and millions of years of evolution, this brain came into existence.  We have gone through a great deal of experiences in the journey of life from being a micro organism, plants, animals and finally become a human being.  All those experiences have been stored in our DNA.  Those experiences have made the brain into a kind of programming.  For example, the brain has seen over many years that fire is harmful, so it is accustomed to stay away from fire. The brain has gathered knowledge through experiences and made them into a mechanical system. 

Brain is a completely automated machine.  Its purpose is to sustain life in the body.  Brain has only one agenda, that is, sustaining life.  It protects and controls the body through biological signals and  our behavior through thoughts. 


Thoughts and emotions are not at all different. In fact, emotions are induced by thoughts only. For instance, you got a phone call from somebody and felt irritated.  You started thinking about the person intensely for sometime.  Slowly, you felt nervous and agitated. Hands started trembling. Then,  eyes starts becoming red, palpitation increases and now you can't even sit in one place. The body started shivering and sweating.  If somebody looks at you now, they will say that you have become emotional.  Similarly, you heard a bad news and it was a thought initially, but as you continue thinking about that, you start feeling sad and worried.  Then, few drops of tears ooze out from eyes and you start weeping.  Now, you have become emotional. 

So, there is nothing special about emotions.  When thoughts become severe and intense, they gather energy and start showing up on body.  Then, it is called as emotion.  

The brain knows very well that the body is mortal and it can die at any time. Brain is also a part of the body. So, the brain wants to continue in time and survive. So, it considers anything that comforts and nourishes life to be pleasure and anything that is detrimental to life is pain. This is common to both animals and human. A deer gathers speed and run fast when she sees a lion waiting for attack. Fight or flight.  

Now, let us try to understand some of the emotions.  Fear is one of the strongest emotion.  When life is threatened, when the body encounters danger,  then, to protect the body, brain secretes chemicals and hormones in the body to fight or flight.  This, we call it as Fear.   Our ancestors, cave men used to live in jungles. They had to protect themselves from animals, so, fear is ingrained in their DNA very deeply. 

Happiness is an emotion we all crave for. Food and sex helped them in survival and sustenance, so brain secreted happy hormones at the sight of food and sex. That's how greed for happiness is ingrained into our system. We have travelled many many years far from our ancestors, but the basic instincts are still the same.  Fear and greed. Only we have got few more words to describe them. Money is happiness, because there is a bright chance of survival.  Marriage is happiness, because life will continue to next generation. The same primitive tendencies of the cavemen. 

The cave man's brain was simple and his motives were clear and direct. So, his suffering too was less.  Our brains have become too complex with the invention of language. Stress, tension, anxiety, jealousy and depression are words which are nothing but fear and greed only. 

Now, we human beings are not mere body, but identified as a person with a set of ideas, character and patterns through our personal experiences. I am somebody.  This "somebody", the person as a psychological entity is prone to change and death. If someone hits our shoulders, we may not react much, but if they neglect our ideas or harm our respect, we will surely get offended.  This offense is interpreted by brain as "death".  Now, you will know what kind of chemicals and hormones will be generated by the brain.  

In a nutshell, in order to understand emotions, we must understand how brain functions. Brain is a product of evolution, a conditioned machine, and programmed to continue in time. It controls our body through biological signals. behavior by thoughts. Thoughts are coming from past conditioning. What is emotion?  When thoughts become severe and intense, they start expressing through the body. They are called emotions. With time and experience, brain has gathered ideas and stuff from outside and a psychological self came into existence - "I am somebody"  This limited sense of self is prone to change and death and so lives in fear always.  This is the cause of all our problems, feelings and emotions.  

We will see in detail on the nature of psychological self, Ego, the personality,  the compulsions of brain to live in habit patters and who we are really in the next part.  

Reflect on what you have read so far.  Knowledge has to be digested properly to bring transformation.  If you have any queries, what's app me personally. 

~Parameswari Kumar. 
 











 










Monday, September 7, 2020

Emotions: friend or foe? Part 1

Emotions and feelings are something that makes a difference between living organisms and  machines.  Emotions are responses of body to an outer influence. We are feeling creatures. We experience and express emotions. Sometimes, they are so mild that we hardly notice them and sometimes they rush like a tornado and create a havoc.  When the emotions are faint and mild, we somehow navigate through them without much strain.  Many people are frustrated and irritated in daily life, but they do not show up explicitly.  We are accustomed to cope up with little discomfort and uneasiness just like the background AC sound is no more disturbing.  Once the emotions become too strong and intense, we often find ourselves to be victimized by emotions. 

Anger is one such common emotion, so many fall for it.  Sadness, resentment, jealous, fear, anxiety, confusion,  excitement are some of the emotions we go through every day.  We have no idea about what they are, but labelled them as "bad".  Next, what we do is, either suppress the emotions or try to get rid of them.  There is so much of violence involved in both ways.  This is suffering. 

Suppose,  if there is a problem in your car, what do you do?  Ignore it? Suppress it?  Control it?  or understand it?  You heard a weird sound coming from the car and you take it to the mechanic shop.  A good mechanic, who knows the mechanism of car,  will listen carefully where from the noise is coming, whether it is from the engine or somewhere else.  He will figure out what is going on inside and fix it. 

We have never taken a moment to ask and inquire, "What is this thing called emotion?".  This is such a simple basic question. But, nobody is asking this question, but keep on asking, "How to handle emotions?", "How to control emotions?" 

Understanding the mechanism of car is vey important to fix the problem in the car.  Similarly, understanding the functions of mind is very important to fix the issues of mind.  In fact, emotion is not at all a problem.  They are signals from the body. Tears are the expression of our body.  They convey something important to us, just as we get fever or headache.  Fever and headache are not diseases, but they convey the message that there is some trouble in body and that needs to be attended.  But, what we do?  We take pills and drugs to suppress them.  Fever is good.  Head ache is good.  We must listen to them.  The body speaks to us through pain only.  Emotions are language of our body.  They say something.  We must listen carefully like a good mechanic listen to the sounds of a car.

So far, we have seen that emotions are responses of body to outer influences. They are not bad. We need not afraid of it. Emotions are language of our body.  They say something to us.   We must listen the emotions carefully like a good mechanic listen to the sounds of a car. 

Once you have understood, then you don't even need to control.  

Understanding is freedom from the problem. 

~Parameswari Kumar. 


   

Sunday, September 6, 2020

Remember yourself.

 Remember yourself, you are the unchanging sky where innumerable clouds float by without leaving a single trace.  Acknowledge this and be happy.

~Mooji.

Reflection: 

The words are simple, hence beautiful.  All our life has been spent in chasing happiness, planing for happiness, working for happiness and craving for happiness. Here, the sage is simply saying, dear, you don't need to do anything, just remember, acknowledge. It is already there. 

What does he mean by saying "Remember yourself"?   

The actor on the stage has forgotten himself in the character. Similarly, we have forgotten our Self in the roles. 

Who are you?  Mother. Really?

Who are you?  Husband. Really?

Who are you?  Hindu. Really?

Have you born with these identities?   Are they not the dresses you have chosen for a fancy dress show?  You have forgotten that you only chose to wear those masks and now you appear to have completely forgotten your own face.  Remember yourself. 

There is a beautiful word for remembrance in Guru Granth Sahib, the sacred book of Sikhs, Simran.  In a shabad, Gurunanak ji says,  Every breath simro Govind. Remember Him. All your worries will drop off. 

Remember Him, Remember your Self. Both are same. He is not different from you. In fact, there is no distance from God to you.  He is in disguise as you. Naughty one. Okay, but how to remember Him? We know how to remember things, people and experiences.  Self is not a thing or a person or an experience.  It is like the sky where innumerable clouds float by.  It is like silence where innumerable things, people, thoughts and experiences float by. 

Remember Him in every breath is to be aware of the Silence behind the experiences, to be aware of the sky behind the clouds. 

You are Silence, You are the Sky.  What could these thoughts do to you?  Why are you so much worried about them? They come and play for some time, and pass away with out even leaving the trace.  Do you remember now what you had been thinking 2 years ago?  Do you remember at least 2 minutes before what had happened in your mind?  NO. Everything is moving, changing, dissolving and you just watch them play their own games.  

You are not the participant of the game. You are the witness of the game.  Winning or loosing, does not matter to you.  Happiness or sadness, does not matter to you.  Good or bad, Does not matter to you.  

Clouds can be heavy, condensed and dark. Sometimes, they may seem to hide the sky.  But, the presence of clouds itself is the proof that there is sky behind. Something is occupying your mind, that is the proof that YOU exist.  

Choose to pay attention to the sky rather the clouds.  This is the only option you have.  This is Simran. Remembrance of God.

Acknowledge this, and be happy.  


Saturday, September 5, 2020

The fountain head of energy

 "When you are really sure, all your energy rises into action. Life is inert and boring when you do not know what you are really doing."

~Acharya Prashant ji.

From the book, "Milestones to Success" 

Reflection:

"Life is boring." 

"I am not interested to do anything.

 "I feel lack of energy." 

 Boredom is the most common complaint we hear from anybody, whether he is a student or employee, a home maker or a professional, rich or poor, learned or illiterate, doesn't matter.  All are inflicted by boredom.  

 Why do I feel like lifeless?  Why there is no energy and enthusiasm in my actions? Why do I postpone and procrastinate? 

 The answer is simple - We don't know who we really are and we don't know what are we doing.

We had been cultured and habituated to follow others rather looking directly and acting from our own intelligence and understanding.  A two year old child would always look up to her mother for acceptance and approval to know whether her actions are right or wrong.  Initially parents teach the child the dos and don'ts and later through education, society, religion etc.,  It is inevitable up to certain age because the child is immature biologically and also dependent on others.  

At the age of 13, our brain becomes fully matured to think on its own and understand.  This is called as the age of inflection in modern psychology.  Now, the child must be encouraged to look at the life through his own eyes. He must be given an environment to grow as an individual.  But, the society never lets the child to be free and independent, but tries to make him as an obedient member of the society and thus control him.   

Especially, in our society (India), parents only decide everything for their children, like career, marriage, job etc.  Money is the measuring unit of success in our society.  Nobody asks the child what does he really love to study or do.  He might be loving something else which will not fetch money. He will not be allowed to choose that he loves. 

 He/She is studying not because of the love for thee subject, but for the marks and result.  He is not getting into a job because he loves to do that, but the job is highly paid. He is not getting married because of love or the company of other person is elevating, but it is a social norm and compulsion.  Everybody is getting married and if I am not, then, I will be odd man out. I am feeling lonely. Who will cook for me if my mother becomes old?   Who will take care of me in old age?  There are so many reasons for marriage, but mostly not for the sake of love, a true love. 

 The office is suffocating because we really don't love the job.  We suffer the toxic environment of the office for 30 days to get the salary on the first day of the month.  Loveless in work, greed for salary.  Can we avoid boredom if we work like this?  

The depression and suicide rate in youths is increasing day by day.  The reason behind this alarming situation is, they have fallen on the trap of social media.  Their life is no more their life. They are motivated and influenced by somebody else.  

When this life is not yours, when you are living it according to a script, then how will you have the energy in living it?  

The only solution to this boredom to live the life attentively.  We never question. That is the big mistake.  Ask real questions and look at your daily life carefully and honestly.  The solution lies in honest observation our daily life. I have only one life, this is precious for me.  I should not waste it.  I can't allow others to live my life.  I must ask and know.  What is duty?  What is respect?  Why do I need to earn more money?  Why marriage is compulsory?  Do I really need to stay in this job?  We must ask such questions with ourselves. 

Know yourself.   Do not wait for somebody else to tell you what to do and flow accordingly.  Find it yourself.  Understand the functions of your mind, its fears, insecurities,  ambitions, expectations and the influence of others over your mind. 

And, once you discover that for yourself, not told by somebody else, there will be great freedom and energy.  Then, you are alive and young.


 





Friday, September 4, 2020

Joy is absence of conditioning.

 "Joy by definition is the absence of conditioning, In this absence, there is a simple purity.  Joy is your inner nature.  Conditioning is an outer insertion that hides the inner nature."

~Acharya Prashant, From the book JOY.

Reflection:  Anything real cannot be defined directly, positively.  They can be known through negation, by knowing what it is not.  We all are seeking Joy.  Happiness and Joy are not same. Happiness is the dual opposite of sadness.  

Happiness is an experience that arises from conditioning. Joy is reasonless and it is freedom from conditioning.  

What is conditioning? 

Conditioning is the influence of others over the mind.

As we are born into this world, we had to depend on others as a child. We could not understand because the brain was not fully grown. So, we had to believe what others say. Our parents, school, society, culture, religion and the environment conditioned us to believe many things.  We had been told what is right and wrong. We had been told what is good and bad. We had been told what will make us happy and sad.  Since we were dependent and immature as children, we took everything told by others to be true. Our family and society where we are brought up conditioned our mind and thus our personality.  Greedy people know this tendency of mind very well. They cunningly put information into our mind for their profit.  We are motivated to consume too much because of the influence of advertisements and Cinema and TV shows.  We resist so much if our body is assaulted by others, but our mind is assaulted very badly, but we don't even pay attention to it.

 Animals are just conditioned biologically, but human beings are conditioned both biologically and socially.  Under the heavy burden of conditioning, the joy of simplicity and innocence is hidden. The light of the lamp is not visible if it is covered with heavy stains and colors.  Similarly, our pure Self is concealed inside layers and layers of conditioning. Most of us are living just like a machine.  We never look clearly what is going on within us and around us.  We simply keep accepting everything comes from outside. 

The clear seeing of what is happening is the beginning of JOY, the act of intelligence. 

Look at your daily life with the eye of honesty.  Ask real questions.  We never question even the fundamentals of life, like education, money, marriage, work etc., We follow the conditionings of biology and society like a sheep.  Is it our life not being executed in a pre programmed way?  

Everybody knows, what will happen at the age of 5.  You will go to school, after that, 10th exam will come,  you will study hard, because the marks are very  important, then 11th,12th, board exam, then, mostly you will choose between few famous branches because it is considered to be famous, and there are many industries in the country where we live seeks workers and you will call this your own inclination and personal interest. You will say, I want to be an Engineer.  Then, campus selection.  You will see everybody is getting married and you too desperately want to get into it.  Then, produce 2 children, preferably the first one to be boy. Then, buy a house and car, pay EMI, live in fear and insecurity, save money for old age and die one day. 

Is it not the pattern of our life?  Is our life not preprogrammed to be executed this way?  Are you living your life at all?  

 God is not far away. He is called as Kadavul in Tamil.  The word is so beautiful that it points to the Truth directly.  Kada means Transcend Ul is Inside.  Transcend the mind and move in.  God is not someone sitting in heaven, but God is hidden in our heart. The heart is covered up by the dust of  millions of years of conditioning.  

Watch carefully.  Our mind is not at all our own.  It is the world sitting on our head.  That's why the saints and sages asked us to surrender our head to realize Truth. 







 


Thursday, September 3, 2020

Stay as the Self


"What can the moon give to the Sun?

Can the moon say, "Sun, to me you seem to a little dull today, 

let me give you a little bit of my light"?

What can the mind give to the Heart

to its very source, the Self?

Mind's seva is to prostrate to the Self.

Mind is to be in service to the Self, nothing else.

Mind is to be in service to the Self, nothing else.

You are the Self.  Stay as the Self.  Don't serve the mind. 

~ Mooji. 

From the book, "The white fire"

Reflection

Moon has no light on its own. It has derived light from Sun and reflect it.  Similarly, the power of mind is gained from Self.  A thought has no life on its own. It gains power when my attention goes towards it.  How can this mind influence the Self?  I am full and complete like the Sun.  

Let us look at our life.  Whom do we serve day in and day out? Don't we serve only our passions and tendencies? Don't we serve people who fulfill our base desires?  

You can not serve the mind. 

Stay as the Self.  

But, how? 

Self is "I am".  Have this deep certainty within your heart -  "I am complete"  "I am full" , "I am not in need" 

And, do not associate "I am" with anything or anybody else.  Asangoham.  That's all. 

Then, mind cannot overpower you.  Mind will serve you. You are the Self.  

~Parameswari Kumar.

True meaning of remembrance of God

"If somebody says, "I remember God all the time", then he is deeply mistaken.  Don't try the impossible. Just do what is possible. What is possible?  "Not to remember the world".  That is sufficient. 

Don't let the world become so important to you that you remember it all the time. 

Whatever you will remember will not be God.  Whatever you will remember will only take you away from God.  God is freedom from remembering."

~Acharya Prashant ji.

From the book, The naked Sky of Freedom.

Reflection:

Anything that is real can not be defined positively.  They can be explained by negation only.  For example, health is absence of disease.  Cleanliness is absence of dirt.  Peace is absence of disturbance.  In the same way, Reality can not be understood directly.  

God is the Reality, Truth.  Truth can not be seen or touched or thought about.  Only false can be seen.  That is the only possibility as we are.  

We think something or the other all the time.  Thinking is all about objects which has form and name.  God is formless and nameless.  That's why he is said to be in all forms and all names.  How to remember God with this little thinking mind?  Whatever is captured with mind, cannot be God.  

So, when the Saints advised us to remember God, it means, "Do not remember the world and its problems to be real".  If you want to have cleanliness, clean up the dirt.  You will see Cleanliness already present.  This is the technique called as Neti, Neti, " Not this, Not that "by Upanishads. 

This is the basic lesson in spirituality.   

~Parameswari Kumar.

Just be.

"Be humble and wise.

Neither compare nor compete.

Do not belong to anyone.

Do not belong to anything.

Be one with your own indivisible being.

You need not become. 

Just be."

~Mooji. 

Those who think themselves to be wise, often found to be proud.  If the knowledge makes oneself proud and egoistic, then, the knowledge has failed from its purpose.  Wisdom is the rare combination of being wise and to be humble.  

Neither compare nor compete  Only "matter" can be compared and valued.  We make a big mistake of comparing our "self" with others, thus degrading us to the level matter.  That's the reason why we are always suffering either in inferiority complex or superiority complex.  Self is incomparable and immeasurable. The body height, weight, money and skills can be compared, but not myself.  I am beyond comparison. 

Don't belong to anyone. When I belong to one person, then, it means, I am not open to others.  This is a limitation we put on ourselves.  Just like cows tied down in a rope with a pole,  we will be stuck with one person.  

Don't belong to anything. The ego always wants something or somebody to cling to, to stick on.  Then that "thing" becomes very important than ourself.  It is dependency.  Wherever there is dependency, there is fear of loosing.  So, do not belong to anyone. Then, you truly belong to the Supreme one. 

Be one with your indivisible being.   Thoughts are many.  Each and every thought pulls us in different direction all the time. We are not one whole when our mind is a war field of thoughts.  Thoughts divide the mind.  Silent watching is the way to be one with my true indivisible nature. 

You do not need to become. There is always an obsession in mind to become somebody, to reach somewhere, to attain something.  We are always in a hurry.  You are complete. Poornam. OM. You need not become anything.  Stop chasing, stop trying, stop wandering. Rest. Relax.  

Just be.  Just be 🌷

~Parameswari Kumar.