I am not needy

Asking myself again and again: From where did I get this belief, "I am needy"?  When did I start believing that I am in need? Probably, from birth onwards. Breath was my first need.  Cried for milk and comfort. I needed support from everything and everybody around me. I was fragile and delicate. My hands and legs were soft and tender that I could not do take care of even myself.

 Is that how I got this belief that "I am needy"?

 Deep inside the heart, there is always an expectation that somebody will come and hold my hands and walk with me.  Why do I look for  support in each and every step?  Why do my eyes look for a light bearer?  Why am I begging for love?

This body has come from the earth, the earth will take care of it.

This mind has come from the world and it knows how to respond to the world.

Let them depend on others. I can't be a beggar.  I don't need support. The gut feeling says so.

But, this little mind does not accept that I am independent and sufficient. I have to prove it.  Have to remove this belief from the mind, the age old belief that I need crutches. I must try and test my legs. I must even test if I can fly.

Hey! Why do you stay all the time at home?  Go out and watch the world.  It is great to walk, run and jump!  Rivers, mountains and people are yours. This earth is your home.  Don't keep telling yourself that you are not needy.

Need facts and proofs, to show you are mature.

Real treasure of life

Reflection: 13th April 2019

Tomorrow is Tamil New Year. My sister sent me wishes through what's app along with a photo which was taken in her pooja room.  It has been decorated with lamp and flowers. Also, she had kept so many things like variety of fruits, grains, nuts, coins, rupees, jewels etc.  Tomorrow morning, she will go eyes closed in front of the altar and open her eyes and look at those objects as first sight.  She called and reminded me too to do the same thing today. Make arrangements today itself so that morning we will wake up and see these wonderful things. 

Actually once upon a time, me too had been doing such things.  Now, I just smile at them.  I wrote a reply message to her.

It all looks wonderful, Bhanu. But one important thing is missing.

Keep a book of wisdom along with these objects. With out wisdom, they will not give you peace, freedom and joy which we really want in life.

We hope that these objects will bring that great joy to us, so we want to acquire them. But, the real means is, wisdom.  We have forgotten to include it in our life. That's why we are suffering in spite of wealth and prosperity. 

Its not too late. First day of the year has just begun.  Start reading one page of wisdom literature, songs of saints and gnanis. They are real treasures.  Keep it in the centre of life. Then, everything will follow you.

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