I am not needy

Asking myself again and again: From where did I get this belief, "I am needy"?  When did I start believing that I am in need? Probably, from birth onwards. Breath was my first need.  Cried for milk and comfort. I needed support from everything and everybody around me. I was fragile and delicate. My hands and legs were soft and tender that I could not do take care of even myself.

 Is that how I got this belief that "I am needy"?

 Deep inside the heart, there is always an expectation that somebody will come and hold my hands and walk with me.  Why do I look for  support in each and every step?  Why do my eyes look for a light bearer?  Why am I begging for love?

This body has come from the earth, the earth will take care of it.

This mind has come from the world and it knows how to respond to the world.

Let them depend on others. I can't be a beggar.  I don't need support. The gut feeling says so.

But, this little mind does not accept that I am independent and sufficient. I have to prove it.  Have to remove this belief from the mind, the age old belief that I need crutches. I must try and test my legs. I must even test if I can fly.

Hey! Why do you stay all the time at home?  Go out and watch the world.  It is great to walk, run and jump!  Rivers, mountains and people are yours. This earth is your home.  Don't keep telling yourself that you are not needy.

Need facts and proofs, to show you are mature.